My Precious Gift

God, help me!!! It's the first thought that comes to me. But knowing that there is no destiny and that I am God also, instantly, that request is a little vague. So, dear Spirit, help me!!! But the Spirit is here with me just to experience life and no matter what I do or what happens. It is here in compassion and love for myself, without judging. So I say myself, help me!!! And I breathe deeply. Breathe, breathe. I reserve ten, twenty, thirty minutes, an hour to myself every day. I feel more peaceful, more balanced, but nothing happens that seems to be the help that I pleaded. I breathe, and nothing happens. Is it really that nothing happens? Or am I actually hoping for a specific (and therefore limited) thing to happen?

It seems like things are getting worse in my little human’s eyes, and my discomfort become more upset, and that this comfort is becoming increasingly uncomfortable. But if chaos happens, as Adamus says, what a blessing! Will I get to the point of extreme chaos where I should need to jump or jump? So, fears come up: Would I be poor? Would the police come to get me? Would my dear ones turn their back judging me? Is God watching me and saying what a waste of time that this girl is living? No! Not at all. None of this is true. And if something happens, I'm everything I have. Fear of death I have no more when I really understood the meaning of death when I have experienced the DreamWalker Death. So what would happen that could be more traumatizing?

Oh, it was more traumatic when we left Home, we entered to the Wall of Fire and we stayed a long time in the absolute Void. Even today we feel these experiences within us and often we repeat traumas and fears in our current lives. This is the time when we must come into the core of our fears. But we already understand that we will not come back to that Home again and to those experiences anymore. There is no going back to our experiences. Therefore, we will not go through those traumas anymore. What we are experiencing is more pleasant than the big drama that we went through when we went out to the All that Is. So why do not we move into this unknown New Energy, that says that WE have the ability to help ourselves if we so choose and want?

Everything is in our hands and less than an inch from our noses. Breathe and breathe. And let that the results be more extensive than the limited expectations. This is the largest magnitude we have. Thank you, myself, for this so precious gift that I have, that nobody is able to give me!

My Precious Gift